and the fact of the matter is it still hurts like hell. but I'll pretend it doesn't I guess until it just doesn't.

lately...

. I guess this is kinda what it feels like. and its the worst feeling in the world.

. I feel like its always for now on going to be past the point of fixable.

. A child should never have to worry about their parent taking their own life.

. I'm still trying to find happiness in each and everyday. no matter what.

. I just wish you'd understand how much sometimes I just need someone to just hold me and really tell me its all going to be okay. and that may be silly. but right now its exactly what I need. more than anything.